I have very contradictory and even paradoxical views about people. I tend to not like people. But I also tend to love them. Perhaps there is no contradiction. I don't like them because people are annoying to me. They don't do what they are supposed to in order to make me happy. They constantly do things that seem so rude and selfish. That is why I don't like people. They are always thinking about themselves and not about me. I can't stand tapping, it is the worst form of torture to me, people do it all the time, most of the time without even realizing it. And I can't stand it. I used to think, while being racked by the torment of having to listen to tapping, "how can they not know that that is the most annoying thing ever devised by the demonic hordes of hell. Can't they see that this is torture to me. I now realize that most people are not out to get me or to cause me to go insane, they are merely not being perceptive of what I (the center of the universe) want/like/can tolerate.
People will do whatever they want feel is best. That doesn't mean that it is best. But according to their warped judgement it always seems so. No one ever thinks of himself as a villain. People are good, and they do what seems best, because of this I find it hard not to love everyone. We are all in this together. Everyone is trying so hard to do what they think is best. For this reason I love people. It is hard not to. I don't think that this needs any more explanations so I will move on.
People say that the world needs more love. I think that is true, in that it needs more Christian charity, the real kind of love. Romantic love is not what the world needs. People fall in and out of love very easily, and heartache and tragedy always follow. It is much harder to fall in and out of charitable love. I don't know anyone that has managed to do so more than 3 or 4 times in a life time. Whereas I have met people that claim to have fallen in love dozens of times. And I believe them. As far as I know I have never experienced romantic love. However I have experienced charity, and it seems like more than enough to me.
